You will meet people in your life who become family. They get you and you get them. Weather you’re a thousand miles apart and haven’t seen each other in years, you no your always there for each other. Always, and that will never change. Unconditional love. ANNIE…love you snit.
Mon, Bree, Jade, Grace, Pheobe, Jo, Hannah. ….
You may even be lucky enough to have mother, father and two brothers Lyndon and TJ. Who also like your uncontional love family are the same. Im sorry i’ve put everyone through some much shit. You have all stayed by my side. Put up with me. Im sorry. I love you
I never believed in guardian angels or anything for that matter until I met Jade. She is my guardian angel and im lucky enough that she became part of my life. On many occasions has saved my life. Where worlds apart but so in-tune.
Do what YOU want.Don’t do what others say. You may, like me, end up institutionalized for months on end. You DO NOT want this. Cliche like most of this is but listen to your heart. And whatever you do dont let someone tell you, you cant.
In short its this mental illness and the constant monsters that yell at me in my head all day. Nothing can control it, no amount of medication, therapy, loved ones around.
I wish there was a happy ending, for me there will be, finally being somewhere where all my dreams will come true. I will be up in the sky, an angel, a star..where ive always wanted to be. That would be my fairytale complete. We are though, forgetting whats going to be left behind. I can not fathom what that will be. Again all about me, all i am is a selfish human being. Not thinking about the torment im going to be leaving behind.
I can not go there, what will be will be. For now, all i want you to no is that im finally at peace. In my paradise, whatever that will be.